What the fuck is wrong with me? Why would I do that? I was doing so god damn well!! I should have posted here before I binged. But I didn't and now I am suffering for it. I went back up to 153. Sure it could just be poo but it's fat fat fat to me. Today we are stripping everything that isn't getting painted in one of our theatres at work. I get out of class at 10 ish and will go straight there. I'll have to eat there with everyone but I might say I'm going to get a snow cone and just eat that. It's under 300 I think? Better than a sandwich, chips, cookies, brownies and stuff right? Why am I so fat!? God I hate my self...  might start posting pictures of myself to keep motivated... I doubt people want to see my lard though.

... Then I fucked up.

I decided to cook. Bad idea. Baaaadd Idea. Needless to say I ended up binging(fuuuck)...
I had two handfuls of chips in RANCH. WTF is wrong with me? I'm lactose intolerant! As soon as I realized what I was doing I tossed the chips. They weren't even mine! They were my roommate's who went home for two weeks and left them. She said I could toss whatever goes bad or eat it if I want I should have just chucked it as soon as she left. I decided to toss all of the bad foods. I really only have veg and some chicken to eat now. That's not including my drinks Hazelnut milk, Oat milk(trying this soon), various tea's, coffee, Light Chocolate Soy milk(A treat), two 2litres of diet coke, one 2litre of diet dr.pepper, and 2litre of white Mt.Dew(if I need the energy).

I might do a review on the different types of milk I've drank. I think I've tried everything but Hemp milk.

Here's to tomorrow! -downs water-

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I'm so gross... I ate like a piggy at lunch. Thank goodness I skipped breakfast! I had a burger and waffle fries. Well I tried purging but that didn't happen because nothing came up and I was really upset but yea.. I got home after some errands and weighed myself. Same weight as this morning. I was so relieved. Not sure if I am going to eat dinner since it's after 7 now... I might just skip it and make a lunch to take tomorrow. I can't be eating like that. It's so gross. I can't stand it!! ugh.... Anyways... I just need to calm down and pull myself together. Tomorrow will be better. I'm almost to 150 again and the step after that is 140. Just breathe....